I was having trouble sleeping and just wanted to post something for me, last month we were going through a very hard time watching Garrett living on the streets, sleeping in parks and pan handling for heroin. We prayed continually for some kind of intervention, not really knowing what to do, then in Sunday school we had a lesson about the prodigal son. Sister Ricks gave me a book to read called When a Child Wanders, I read it and the underlying message was of hope and love and to never give up and to love them unconditionally. In Releif Society we had a lesson on a talk by Uchdorf called The Love of God, the ultimate thing we are to learn while on this earth, to love. We knew we could not let him in our home when he was using Heroin, we continued to pray. Then he was arrested for being under the influence. They held him for 16 hours, we agonized on what to do when he got out, we prayed. I continued to pray up until I got the call at 3 am to pick him up, he was beginning to have withdrawals, was I to drop in off back at the park? We had no where for him to go, when the phone rang I knew what I had to do and Blaine agreed, when i picked him up I asked him if he wanted to get clean, I told him he would have to detox cold turkey, no methadone etc. He agreed and Blaine took 3 days off work, after the initial 3 day withdrawal he left but then came back and we told him for two weeks not to go anywhere. He didn't and the 2 weeks is up and he is still staying put but he is suffering from depression. He has tested clean, I know he has a very long, long way to go and counseling to figure things out for himself. I continue to pray daily that he will feel the spirit again and that he will heal. All I can do is love him and hope and pray and have faith that somehow his mind and body will be healed. I want so much to do as Uchdorf said and express greater love to my family and my neighbor. I am so blessed with a wonderful family, wonderful husband, wonderful children and the most adorable smart grandchildren. Now maybe I can get to sleep, I am getting up early for Quinn's 7 am graduation.
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I can't even begin to imagine the struggles you have been facing regarding Garrett and his idiot choices. I told somebody the other day you and dad are the most forgiving people I know, constantly bringing him back in after he breaks your hearts. I believe Heavenly Father knows what you've been dealing with daily and loves and blesses you tremendously for your strength. We're still praying Garrett will use the smart side of his brain (it's in there somewhere) and turn his life around for himself. It's always nice having friends in the church around us to help us with our struggles.
thanks Emilee
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